You remember how I said that Saila was NOT autobiographical or about losing my love? THIS is. I don’t have much to say about Drive Through, except this was the song that forced me to admit, in spite of all my denials, that I was toxic, abusive and hurtful. I was also in love.
“Don’t bleed on those that didn’t cut you”. Sometimes we end up doing just that: we hurt others because we hurt, we abuse others because we were abused. These ‘fools’ that love us hang around, they put up with our abuse, they’re patient with us, they treat us like gods and goddesses. In response we cut them to ‘repay’ them for their kindness. We bleed on them, and they on us. Eventually, the blood runs out.
In that, my love and I were both guilty.
Initially, an 808 fueled palate cleanser, this became more and more intense, and ended up being my second most personal track on the record. For that, I am grateful. I needed to say those things.
Is life a drive through? No, I’m not that cynical. But this is what happens when something beautiful, like love between two people, inexplicably fails. This is the order you placed, this is your meal.
Make your peace with it. Or keep returning.